Sep 26
“I’m having lunch with my sister. Could you, like, go?”
Last night, I was at a party, got high, drunk and then got sad alcohol.
I went home feeling lonely. I went on grindr. Some guy talked to me. I invited him over. When he got here, I realized I didn’t want to have sex, I just needed someone to actually sleep next to.
I tried to do stuff with him, but it was like an out-of-body experience. I could see myself doing it, but couldn’t feel anything. Physically or emotionally. I was blank.
I had never wanted anyone to get the fuck out my place so bad in the morning.
I don’t like the person I’m becoming.
